the urge to go h0me~

so, this is the assignment for my stress management class.

anxiety scale- scores of 11 and above indicate high levels of anxiety.

depression scale- scores of 23 and above indicate high levels of depression.

and I scored 7 and 35 respectively.

great.

as if I don't know that.

*sigh*

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The Other Side Of The Door

In the heat of the fight

I walked away,

Ignoring words that you were saying,

Trying to make me stay.

I said, "This time I've had enough."

And you've called a hundred times,

But I'm not pickin' up.

'Cause I'm so mad, I might tell you that it's over.

But if you look a little closer

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you

To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."

Wait there in the pourin' rain,

Come back for more.

And don't you leave,

'cause I know all I need

is on the other side of the door.

Me and my stupid pride

I'm sittin' here, alone.

I'm going through the photographs,

Staring at the phone.

I keep going back over

Things we both said

And I remember the slammin' door,

And all the things that I misread.

So baby you know everything

Tell me why you couldn't see

That when I left I wanted you to

Chase after me? Yeah

I said, "Leave," but all I really want is you

To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."

Wait there in the pourin' rain,

Come back for more.

And don't you leave,

'cause I know all I need

is on the other side of the door.

And I scream out the window,

"I can't even look at you, I don't need you,"

But I do, I do, I do.

I say, "There's nothing you can say

To make this right again, I mean it,

I mean it

What I mean is

I said, "Leave," but baby all I want is you

To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."

Wait there in the pourin' rain,

Come back for more.

And don't you leave,

'cause I know all I need

is on the other side of the door.

With your face, and your beautiful eyes

And the conversation

With the little white lies.

And the faded picture

Of a beautiful night

You carried me from your car

up the stairs

And I broke down cryin'

Was she worth this mess?

After everything and that little black dress

After everything I must confess,

I need you

I said, "Leave," but baby all I really want is you

To stand outside my window, throwing pebbles, screaming, "I'm in love with you."

Wait there in the pourin' rain,

Come back for more.

And don't you leave,

'cause I know all I need

is on the other side of the door.

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hanisah の ばか。

nur hanisah azmi,

i am very disappointed in you!

full stop.

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nak ni! nak ni!

my current craze - gladiator heels!

cun gila oke.

tp...tp..tp...duet dh abes!

huu~~

*drools*

fine.

fine.

fine.

should start studying for tomorrow's ospe.

bye bye encik gladiator~

*sighsigh*

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growing up~~

As we grow up,

we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will,

you'll have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it is harder every time.

you'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours.

you'll fight with your bestfriend

.....and maybe even fall in love with them.

you'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry...

because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone close to you.

So take too many pictures,

laugh too much,

and love like you've never been hurt...

because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

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xoxo~♥

happy birthday~

thank you for being b0rn.

i love you!

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tagged~!

tagged by fara

Bold the statements that ARE TRUE to you. Italicize the statements that you WISH were true. Leave the rest alone. Then, tag 10 people to do the same test.

I’m 170cm tall.

I don’t know what I want at the moment.

I’m not happy.

I hate my friends.

I hate my life.

I hate my grades.

I can drive.

I’m bored of driving.

I have a white handbag.

I love dancing.

I go clubbing every week.

Shopping is bullshit.

I have a tattoo of a star.

I got my navel pierced.

I have friends that take drugs.

90% of my friends smoke.

I still hang out with my ex, even though our break up was rather nasty.

I’m studying Fashion.

I have a business running.

I hate cartoons

I hate someone.

I have 10 Lollipops handbags.

I buy CLEO every month.

My parents don’t know about my blog.

I have an iPod.

I don’t have faith in the current “one”.

My school mates know about my blog.

I wanted to be a fashion designer.

I love rock emo bands.

I hate it when people cancel last minute meet ups.

I’m a rebel.

I don’t believe in love.

High school's filled with drama.

My parents have faith in me.

I’ve bought shoes this month.

A blogger bitched about me before.

I hate sports.

I heart Italian food.

I hate meeting new people.

I hate nail polish.

The mother bear gives me hugs.

People should start appreciating me.

High school was the worst time of my life.

I have red hair.

One Utama is my second home.

I’m a guy.

I’m scared of my Biology exam which I’m going to face tomorrow.

I hate vacations.

We’ll last.

I believe in long distance relationships.

I’m going to get high and smoke weed one day soon.

I’ve robbed an old lady.

I’m starting to like applying make-up.

I was a tomboy.

At times I think I still am a tomboy.

I love bitching about people behind their backs

I still have a best friend.

I have a cat.

I hate surprise parties.

I hate planning parties.

I’m hot.

I’m a sinner.

I’ve got a DS light.

I have a Wii.

I can’t live without music.

Video games are a waste of time.

I miss the father bear.

I love being in love.

I know how to cook.

I have 100% freedom.

Boys are assholes.

I hate Math.

I’m happy with what I have.

I love horror films.

I slept in my parents’ room for 3 days after watching Scream when I was a kid.

My old friends keep in touch with me.

I don’t read newspapers.

The news is such a waste of time.

Blogging is a waste of time.

I hate animals.

I can’t live without make-up.

I curse like a pirate.

I’m happy with my 11 year old car.

I hate people that are smart.

I love Orange juice.

I can’t drink for nuts.

I believe that everyone in their teens have lost their virginity.

I’ve got a new phone.

I’m going to get a new pair of shoes by the end of this month.

I love swimming.

I haven’t worked out since March.

I think I’m fat.

I love my friends and family.

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PMS-ing

All I really want is someone who keeps his promises and listens to my babbles,

someone to call when I get scared,

someone to laugh with and be stupid with,

someone who would be there for me even when I'm at my worst,

and someone to hold my hand when i pull away.

It's really not much to ask for...

is it?

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there are people who actually hate me.

haha.

wondering the reasons behind.

hurt me. hate me. label me.

they won't make u pretty either.

xoxo!

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funny~

it's funny how hello is always accompanied by goodbye,

it's funny how good memories can start to make you cry.

it's funny how forever never really seems to last,

it's funny how much you'd lose if you forgot about your past.

it's funny how "friends" can just leave you when you're down,

it's funny how when you really need someone, they are never around.

it's funny how people change and they think they are so much better,

it's funny how many lies can be packed in one love letter.

it's funny how people forgive even though they can't forget,

it's funny how one night can contain so much regret.

it's funny how ironic life turns out to be,

but the funniest part of all,

is that none of these are funny to me.

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yay! yay! yay!

finally....

these are MINE!

yay~! ^^

i can't put it into words though.

to say that I am happy would be an understatement. =b

THANK YOU SO MUCH.

you love someone not because you want him to love you too..

but rather, you love him simply because you found no reason not to..

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