#notetoself

 

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Darling.

Dear darlin’, please excuse my writing. 

I can’t stop my hands from shaking 

'Cause I’m cold and alone tonight. 

I miss you and nothing hurts like no you. 

And no one understands what we went through. 

It was short. 

It was sweet. 

We tried. 

We tried.

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To love at all is to be vulnerable.

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket — safe, dark, motionless, airless — it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The alternative to tragedy, or at least to the risk of tragedy, is damnation. The only place outside of Heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is Hell.”

- C.S. Lewis

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We will get through this.

Accompanying Fana at her lab last night. And it was freaking 2 a.m.. Whatever the reasons are, we chose this. Postgraduate study demands a lot of time, efforts and support. I know what desperation feels like. I know how difficult it is to cling onto a shimmer light of hope. And I know how important it is to have someone who understands what you are going through. Be strong and hang on. We will get through this. ♥

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Dear October

Dear October,

I need you to be awesome. 

“The fact that you’re struggling doesn’t make you a burden. It doesn’t make you unloveable or undesirable or undeserving of care. It doesn’t make you too much or too sensitive or too needy. It makes you human. Everyone struggles. Everyone has a difficult time coping, and at times, we all fall apart. During these times, we aren’t always easy to be around — and that’s okay. No one is easy to be around one hundred percent of the time. Yes, you may sometimes be unpleasant or difficult. And yes, you may sometimes do or say things that make the people around you feel helpless or sad. But those things aren’t all of who you are and they certainly don’t discount your worth as a human being. The truth is that you can be struggling and still be loved. You can be difficult and still be cared for. You can be less than perfect, and still be deserving of compassion and kindness.”

- Daniell Koepke

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