Wasn't meant to be.

 

“I don’t want just words. If that’s all you have for me, you’d better go.”

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It's 5 in the morning and I can't seem to close my eyes.
Must be because of the earlier caffeine since I need to work on an article.
Or might even because I can't get this one song out of my head for I had been listening to it repeatedly for the entire night.
Or is it because someone left me pondering and I can't find the answer?
But surely I hope it is not because something is going off my routine.

Whatever it is, my head hurts.
And I am super hungry too.

I wonder what's for breakfast. :D

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The breakups.

Before you get married - before you settle down and commit yourself to one person for the rest of your life - you should have at least 3 relationships. And you should break up from these 3 relationships in 3 different ways. These experiences will teach you valuable lessons that you need to learn before you can truly find happiness. Think of it as your Foundation, Intermediate and Advanced-level courses.

1. The breakup in which your heart gets broken. 

Most people will experience this. This is the breakup that hurts really, really bad. Maybe you were cheated on. Maybe you were just cruelly and coldly dumped. Or maybe (and I know people who've experienced this before) your partner just up and disappeared and never even bothered to let you know it's over. In any case, it's the kind of breakup where you feel like your world has just ended.

The lesson: You can survive. Your world has not ended. Your life goes on. And eventually, you will learn to open up again and love another person. The first time hurts the worst; if it happens again, just tell yourself "been there, done that." Having your heart broken doesn't kill you. It only makes your heart stronger.

2. The breakup in which you break someone else's heart. 

Most people may not even be aware that they experienced this. This is where you dump someone. It might be for any number of reasons. You found someone better. You got tired of the relationship. You never really loved that person, it was only lust or pity or puppy love. But that person whom you dumped will suffer the deepest of pain, and it is because of you.

The lesson: You realize the power you have over the people close to you. You realize how badly you can hurt someone, especially those who love you. You realize your responsibility to be kind, sensitive and respectful - to not be the kind of people who hurt you.

3. The breakup that is perfectly amicable and has no hard feelings whatsoever. 

Most people may never experience this, but it is important. Maybe the relationship was troubled and stormy - but the both of you can agree that breaking up is for the best. Or maybe the relationship was perfectly pleasant, but it has to end for whatever reason, and both of you can accept that. Maybe you can both remain friends - and only friends.

The lesson: That love and romance doesn't have to be painful. You don't have to have drama in your life. Your relationship can be steady and peaceful without being boring; it can be wild and passionate without being heart-breaking. If you're smart, if you're mature, if you know how to choose people who are equally smart and mature, you can be happy. Even through breakups.

Taken from a forum I frequent. And this is just a note for myself.

I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason. And I believe that there's no turning back once something had happened. Still, this does not mean I am encouraging relationships or being a couple, before getting married. I know that's what most people do, and I used to be one from the likes but as the time goes by, I no longer favor such thing. 

Lame, but...yeah.

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Can a guy and a girl be best friends?

Was stuck in the traffic when there's this question on Hitz.fm.

The answers from the two guys I am closest to: 

*runs*

Even though best friends don't always ended up together, somewhere in between, 

the relationship definitely went a little further on some occasions. 

Still, it is possible. Either one or both of them must be gay. ;)

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Someday, for somebody.

Maybe I should start posting on usual basis again. 

Otherwise I might have missed all those crappy stuff and little things that could be of significance, someday.

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Self-Worth.

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ごめなさい。

The situation shouldn't get more awkward than it already is.

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This is meaningless, really.

Umar treated us to lunch at an Arabic restaurant where I happened to bump into the guy whom F likes.

The devil inside me prompted me to send her provocative texts. >:D

Me: Umar bwk kitorg pegi mkn kat kedai arab then ada S. Dia nampak Nisah, dia angkat tgn dia n intai2 Nisah dtg ngan sape. I am liking S, again. :3

F: Nisah busuk.

Me: <3

F: I don't like u..tanak kawan

Me: I like myself. and S. :P

F: Tanak kawan.nt dia suke nisah.dahla nisah lg comei dr F :(

Me: It's not like I can choose who to like and who's not. It's what my heart dictates. and it just happens. :P

F: i hate u

Me: It doesn't matter. :P

She is too cute and it's a waste to not messing up with her.

Poor girl. I shall repent and admit to her tomorrow. haha Or perhaps later on :P.

Hey girl, knowing me..you should know that he's not the kind of guy I always find myself get attracted to. ;)

And honestly, I think it's good for you for having those kind of feelings. Without that どきどき feelings, my current life is too dull.

++++

Anyway this morning I  attended a public lecture at Plenary Theatre, KLCC with DJ, Lian Chee and my two fellow Nigerian lab mates, Umar and Mariamu. 

"Can Hybrid Rice Avert Food Crisis?" by Professor Yuan LongPing, the winner of 2011 Mahathir Science Award. Prior to that was a talk on "Predicting Winners" by Dr. Woei Fuh Wong. 

Very insightful. :)

Science is a fashion. It evolves.

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And did those whispers have a name?

Moriarty.

<3

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Note to self.

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One, two, three..

One

Two

Hahaha. :-) Enjoy your movie then. Have a nice long weekend!
By the way, when Prof. ask u to do something that means she knows that you r good n will help her up. Haha. Great then. Welcome to the group. :-)

-DJ

Three

I wanna be straightforward like uuuuu....XX selalu nak tegur org tapi tade kekuatan cm nisah td padahal dlm hati membuak2.tp xley nk dikeluarkan waaa...i am proud of uuuu...

-X

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A life worth living.

It's always the little things in life that make it worth living.

These are among the simple things that never fail to make me happy.

1. Good morning and good night texts

2. Fish (Some people might not get this, but for me they are fascinating to watch)

3. Baking

4. Ice-cream

5. Cards

6. Random text messages and phone calls

7. A good read, be it a book or an article

8. Trips

9. Hopelessly romantic movies

10. Cakes

Plain boring. Indeed, I am.

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Things gonna work out, somehow.

-______-''

He's not the only person suggesting that.

Akak lab also keeps asking me the same thing.

Their reasons: So that I can have someone to take care of me.

Do I appear as too fragile or what? LOL

No matter what you do, no matter how many times you screw up and think to yourself "There's no point to carry on", no matter how many people tell you that you can't do it - keep going. Don't quit.

Don't quit, because a month from now, you'll be that much closer to your goal than you are now. Yesterday you said tomorrow. Make today counts. 

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Apologies to several of you who have previously requested to follow me on Twitter.

It is just a place for me to thank DCTP for their awesome work and most of the time, to vent my feelings. Those tweets are usually something I'd regret if I say them out loud, hence they are protected (sometimes, I'd delete them as well after realizing how ridiculous they are).

If you are approved, it's either :

1. You are DCTP-related.
2. I don't care at all about what you think of me.

3. I trust you enough to let you see the vulnerable side of me.

There are some other reasons, but that's about all I can think of now.

It's a good thing for you to not following me there.

Less dramas, less annoyance.

No hard feelings, okay? :)

Chill yo!

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When is the best time to tell someone you love him?

Answer : Before someone else does.

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'nuff said.

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Monday rage.

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faux pas!

"K" 

is definitely on top of my list of the most hated replies.

There's nothing to it, really.

 "lol" by itself 

would be next. 

It's pretty much self-explanatory. 

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My happy pills.

Hey you, 
thanks for the little ones. :)

That was totally unexpected, haha..

I could sit all day and just watch them.

Please be good to me and live well. ♥

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ambivalence

I think I need to mull it over and get my feelings sorted out. 

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