Life is more black and white than it seems.

If you're laying in bed   

wrapped up in sheets

of miserable thought,

go to sleep.

If thumbing through old messages

only causes your heart to ache

and long for something 

unattainable

erase them.

If it hurts to keep

everything you're feeling

bottled up inside

let it out.

If you're clinging onto someone

that doesn't treat you like

you're worth the world

let them go.

Because sometimes

we choose to believe

that things are only

indistinguishable shades of gray

when in reality,

life is more black and white

than it seems.

If you're unhappy

with the way

you are living your life

change it.

m.k.

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Had I known these before.

• Scooting around feelings won't do justice to myself. Fighting the feelings will only intensify them, that's what they say. And they are not wrong. 
• Accepting the feelings makes them easier to deal with. They're there if they are there. They aren't if they are not. 
• People will change. They will change their minds. Like they always do.
• I will change, too.
• I am not gonna fool around with anyone's life plan and feelings just because I am unsure of my own.
• Don't hold on just because you think you'll never find someone else. Because, wanting to leave is enough reason to go.
• I play by the rules. My rules, for most of the time.
• I must do a lot of things in life that I don't want to do.  
• Everyone seems to get their life pieced together, except me.
• Some answers don't come easy. And most of them don't come at all.
• But sometimes, it is alright not to know all the answers.
• We shouldn't settle for anything less. Don't settle until you have it, if that's what you really want.
• Failures are answers to questions you had the courage to ask.
• Your uncertainty should tell you that at the very least, you need to explore other avenues. And if those roads lead you back, great. If they don’t, great. That's what they said.
  
  But I hate uncertainties. 

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Choosing, in life.

It is not the fear of moving on that scares me. It is the fear of never going back.

They never told us just how much it would cost to choose in life.

They never told us that even though you can move on from certain things, 

it may in turn cost you your heart.These decisions we face may turn us into either saints or monsters,

but it has to be worth more than becoming nothing at all..

- Mary Kate Teske  

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Absolute nothing.

Kak Norsha even prepared this for me.
On my side, absolutely nothing is progressing. #facepalm

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Travel back, down that road.

And I thought I would never have to study for exams anymore.

Frankly, the more I learn, the more I realize the less I know.

Which is very good for me.

Although, this also means more troubles are awaiting, considering the situation I'm in.

I really have no idea as to why I've chosen to take the class despite that I've already fulfill my credit requirements. In fact this subject was the one I hated the most back then. 

As if I am done with my lab works. 

As if I have that much free time. 

As if I am not tied to other commitments. 

And as if I've started writing my thesis. 

I guess it was just me finding ways to get away from the same people, same surroundings or it is simply just me, being stubborn.

So why don't you, dear exam, be easy on me. ♥

That's the problem with being strong - people think they can say or do anything to you and you’re gonna still be standing, sturdy like a rock. People think that you’re never going to be sad, people think that you’re never going need them to be there for you, people expect you to be there for them round the clock even though you have your own battles to fight. That’s the problem with being strong.

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I thought I am done with the expectations. Looks like I am not, and that ruins almost everything.

Should I stop here?

because I have feelings that this time it is not going to work either.

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