And did those whispers have a name?

Moriarty.

<3

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What a day

Tiring day after a stressful exam.

Picked Aimi at the KTM station.

Went to Alamanda.

Stopped for a red light and someone smashed my car from the back.

Yes, a car smashed mine.

Clueless of what's happening at first.

Then realized someone hit my car.

My very first car accident. And I was the one driving.

Clueless of what to do.

The first thing, I called Fana.
Because she's the closest, not just in term of location.

Too scared to tell Umi but I still did afterwards..because well, she's my mum.

And texted Zamri, for unknown reason, honestly.

I didn't even know what to do.

Received phone calls from Abah and Umi.

And Zamri.
Normally, I'd cry in an instant.

I guess I was too shocked.

I am, even now.

Settled everything and went for dinner, since I haven't had my lunch yet. 

It was 9.30 pm.

Barely ate, and I didn't even know what made me suggest we watched the movie after that.

I guess all I ever want was for them to stay with me for a while.

I didn't watch the movie though, sleep in the cinema after the first 30 minutes.

Then went home, like nothing ever happened.

The only thing I know now is..my car is a wreck. :'(

And sitting here now, it kinda hit me slowly. :'(

Wishing that today was just a nightmare.

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The only exception.

Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Or keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm content

With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

The problem with not liking anyone is...you start having a crush on everyone who is smart, cool and awesome. XD

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Up, up we go~

I am not a fan of getting all sweaty, but nevertheless Broga Hill was fun.

Fana, Ain and me were assigned to prepare the breakfast, so we managed to sleep for only one hour since we were required to go there as early as 4 a.m to catch the sunrise.

Seeing these views in person definitely made the sleepy and tiring journey worth it. :)

 

Pictures credit to Fana and Tiqah. 

Picnic and BBQ afterwards were really fun too.

Arrived home later that day, caught up on sleep debt only to wake up with pain all over my body, and that ain't fun anymore. XD

Part of educating yourself is familiarizing yourself both sides of an issue (Jd-, DCTP).

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I loathe how unproductive and lazy I am these days.

Can someone please knock some sense into me?

X_X

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You are not any less different than them.

Sad thing is, I thought you were.

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PhD thingy to ponder

1. Do think about whether you really want to do a PhD. Being a PhD student is NOT the same as being an undergrad, nor like working as a research assistant. A PhD is extremely hard work requiring a lot of discipline and dedication. Don't just start a PhD because it's the line of least resistance.
2. Do choose yr supervisor well. The quality of yr supervisor will have a direct impact on how much you get out of yr PhD and how good (or bad) an experience it is. Don't choose yr PhD supervisor because he/she is the leader in his/her field, in fact that's the most likely way to find a bad supervisor. Talk to the PhD students already working in the lab, find outwhether they are happy and get information about the supervisor's personality, level of attention (too much/too little) and how well they plan their projects.
3. ‎Don't leave the responsibility for your project to others. Don't leave it to your supervisor to tell u how to work, what to read or plan yr project. This is yr learning experience. Get involved and take responsibility as early as possible.
4. Do get support from other PhD students. When things get tough, the only people who can understand what u are going through are other PhD students (or former ones !)..If there are other PhD students around u, arrange to go for regular coffee/lunch breaks with them. If not, try an online forum (u can google them..there are a lot on the net).
5. ‎DON'T waste your 1st year. It is easy to think that u have a long time to complete yr PhD..but don't be lulled into a false sense of security...time has a habit of disappearing fast. Start out as you mean to go on. Establish a strict work and study routine and stick to it...you are not an undergrad anymore !
6. ‎Don't spend long hours in the lab for the sake of it..Make sure that when you are in the lab,you are really working and NOT just hanging around. I've seen many people spend 16 hrs a day in the lab, but they only actually work for eight hours or less. An 8 hour day, with time away from the lab to relax yr body and mind will keep you sharp and focused.
7.  Do summarize your results as you go. From the beginning, get yourself into the discipline of writing a monthly summary of experiments performed, results, comments from supervisor and conclusions + include all lab book references/data/images. The monthly reports will link up to make a story of yr research and make yr write-up much easier.
8. ‎Don't underestimate how long it will take to write up. However long you think it will take you to write up, double or even trebling it will be closer to the truth. The write up is the hardest part of yr whole PhD....When my wife says that I have no concept of the pain and agony of childbirth, I beg to differ - A PhD is like a long uncomfortable pregnancy and the write up is the long and agonizing labor !
9.  Do take every opportunity to PRACTICE and LEARN. Treat your PhD studies like an intensive training program. Listen to & learn from those around you, take every opportunity to try new techniques, present data, meet other scientists etc.
10. Do GET a LIFE...It is not all hard work and heartache. Smell the flowers as you go along, enjoy the people around you and make sure YOU HAVE SOME FUN !

- Prof. Madya Shaharum Shamsuddin, USM

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