....rand0mness....

i'm sick of the lecture n0tes ady.. *sigh*

but then..what else can i d0? i havent start revision for micr0biology & pharmac0logy yet.. th0se subjects are the toughest for dis sem.. i guess m0lecular bi0logy was not as difficult as them.. really? haha..i did badly for molecular bi0logy last sem..dr.shaharum must b very sad..if i were him, i wud be very dissap0inted.. never mind..i dun wan 2 think bout d past..they are frustrating..and i dun need anythin more since i dun think i will be able to take it.. and..here's my final exam schedule..

of c0z, i dun like it..pharmac0logy and path0logy especially. how c0me the pA is so cruel..didn't they kn0w how thick the n0tes are for b0th subjects? yet they came out with this schedule.. they shud learn some humanity, at least..dun be so cruel laa..dammit....have they forgot when they were students back then? *sigh*

i really should stop thinking bout negative things.. well, Law of Attraction is relevant enough, i think... ( side note: modern consensus among New Thought thinkers is that the Law of Attraction says people's thoughts (both conscious and unconscious) dictate the reality of their lives, whether or not they're aware of it. Essentially "if you really want something and truly believe it's possible, you'll get it", but putting a lot of attention and thought onto something you don't want means you'll probably get that too. google it yourself for further info..). and plus, "xiong mao" pr0bably w0nt like it if i keep talking bout all these negative feelings..dats y he left, i guess..haha! actually, he's not even leaving..dats just to exaggerate things..hua3.. he's such a go0d + nice buddy..always optimist.. and of c0z, he's super sweet.. =)

hey gurls out there..come and grab this chance..he's single! haha.. i believeD that he's going 2 make a go0d partner for me..since he was so understanding and sweet..we are very different in our own way- our religions, races. beliefs, thoughts and the way we handle things.. but that didn't even matter..we were very happy..h0nestly, i were very happy back then. he was really h0nest with his feelings.. but then, it was ruined bc0z of some pervvy thingy..hahaha.. well...dats my past..alm0st 2 years ady.. literally, i am so over it n0w..dats y i am able to talk ab0ut it freely..no more unpleasant feelings,etc... lalalala~

i wonder what umai's going to do.. dat guy is asking her out, and wants her to stay at his house with his bro+wife.. i dun think you shud trust guys that much,umai.. pr0bably both of you are in love..but that doesn't mean that you have to follow all the things that he said. being extra careful won't hurt, rite? plus, it is the very 1st time both of you are going out.. staying at his place is really inappropriate.. hopefully everything will be all right for b0th of you.. since this new guy makes you happy, i'll acknowledge your relationship..hehe.. come on, both of you should make it official ady.. ahhh...i'm envious...XD

i've never been on a date b4.. that wud be really nice, rite? i cant wait to hear from umai after her long awaiting date.. hopefully you'll have great time together..you deserve it after all.. ^^

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.:: crush ::.

David Archuleta - Crush

I hung up the phone tonight

Something happened for the first time

Deep inside..

It was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me

It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

And I just got to know..

[Chorus]

Do you ever think when your all alone

All that we can be, where this thing can go

Am I crazy or falling in love

Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath when I look at you

Are you holding back, like the way I do

Cuz I try and try to walk away,

But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind

When we're hangin spending time girl

Are we just friends

Is there more, is there more

See it's a chance we've gotta take

Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last,

Last forever, forever

[Chorus]

Why do I keep running from the truth

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized

And I just got to know..

Do you ever think when your all alone

All that we can be, where this thing can go

Am I crazy or falling in love

Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath when I look at you

Are you holding back, like the way I do

Cuz I try and try to walk away,

But I know this crush ain't goin away x5

p.s to sumone: thankies....^^

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drifting away~

i cant sleep..darn..

d final exam is approaching near.. but yet, wat am i doing each n every day? *sigh* really, i'm sick of myself...

by da way, certain part of me is aching..i wonder wat shud i d0..

and..one more thing, am i really that annoying? sum ppl are drifting away fr0m me..i w0nt blame them of c0z... hmm...this is so pathetic.. i better st0p n try 2 sleep...and put aside all th0se distracting thoughts.. or else, i dun think i'll be able 2 hold my tears anym0re..h0pefully tomorrrow will be much better.. but i dun think it will.. i'll get my ospe and cA result tomorrow..i alm0st forgot ab0ut it. damn.. hmm...oyasuminasai~

p.s i wanna go h0me so bad...

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...YOU...

yay! i've watched all the epis0des of Tantei Gakuen Q.. my conclusi0n is...Ryuu-sama is so h0t! lol...i'm crushing on him since he is so co0l...and has very nice hair! hahaha..

i'm glad malay guys dun hv hair styles as nice as the japanese guys..or else i'll fall for them in no tyme..lalalala~ speaking on crushes, i w0nder what is he up to now.. wait...dats odd.. why did his name popped into my mind? omg..dis is n0t supp0sed to be...no..no.. dats impossible...hahaha... umai keeps encouraging me to go for "it".. well, thanks umai..for concerning about me. but i'm just afraid, i think....what if it w0nt last? what if he is just messing around? what if this...what if that... nah~ lets juz go with the flow... after all, you really dun have to worry...if you are sincere with your feelings of course... ^^

hey...lets skip this.. i really shoudn't think too much of it.. hurm..well, wat am i supp0sed to do now? such a stupid questi0n to ask.. final is juz around the corner, dammit.... what else should you do, young lady? damn.. hmm..very well then, i'll post again next time.. actually i am not really into this blogging thingy. it is just another way to waste my tyme..lalalala~

till next tyme..daa~

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-h0nesty-

im damn b0red..so i'll p0st dis..lalalala~

....the so-called h0nest survey....

1. Honestly, what color is your cellphone?

::: black..

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2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?

::: n0thin reli..im b0red..

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3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?

::: listenin 2 music + waiting 4 a certain sumone 2 reply me..

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4. Honestly, what did you do today?

::: hang out wif my frens! ^^

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5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?

::: no..

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6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?

::: yeah...sh0ppin smpai duet abes..*sigh*

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7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?

::: yes..i luv disney!

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8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?

::: no..y shud i?

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9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?

::: being around ppl i love, doing things i like..

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10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?

::: h0nestly, yes...

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11. Honestly, what is your mood right now?

::: im b0red..

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12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?

::: no.

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13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?

::: yeah..

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14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?

::: everyone d0es..

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16. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?

::: no.

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17. Honestly, who/what do you want to hug right now?

::: bantal..^^

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18. Honestly, are you loyal?

::: yeah..

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19. Honestly, are you in denial?

::: hw did u kn0w? XD

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20. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be anywhere else right now?

::: yeah..i wanna go h0me..

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21. Honestly, who is your best friend?

::: umai! and few others..i miss them..

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22. Honestly, have you ever consumed alcohol?

::: no. i dun drink..

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23. Honestly, do you like someone?

::: hurm...

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24. Honestly, does anyone like you?

::: he says so..^^

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25. Honestly, is it going anywhere with him/her?

::: we'll see..lalala~

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26. Honestly, did you answer all these questions honestly?

::: haha..

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9 Biggest Brain Damaging Habits!

1. No breakfast = people who do not take breakfast are going to have a lower blood sugar level.This leads to an insufficient supply of nutrients to the brain causing brain degenerations.

2. Over-eating = it causes hardening of the brain arteries, lending to a decrease in mental power.

3. Smoking = it causes multiple brain shrinkage and may lead to Alzheimer disease.

4. High sugar consumption = too much sugar will interrupt the absorption of proteins and nutrients causing malnutrition and may interfere with brain development.

5. Air pollution = the brain is the largest oxygen consumer in our body. Inhaling polluted air decreases the supply of oxygen to the brain, bringing about a decrease in brain cells.

6. Sleep deprivation = sleep allows our brain to rest, long term deprivation from sleep will accelerate the death of brain cells.

7. Head covered while sleeping = sleeping with the head covered, increases the concentration of carbon dioxide and decrease concentration of oxygen that may lead to brain damaging facts.

8. Working your brain during illness = working hard to studying with sickness may lead to a decrease in effectiveness of the brain as well as damage the brain.

9. Lacking in stimulating thoughts = thinking is the best way to train our brain, lacking in brain stimulation thoughts may cause brain shrinkage.

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why..

it hurts, again......

mood: leave me al0ne..

currently listenin to: Destiny by Marija Serifovic

It's been a long way

I try hard not to fall apart

Every night I pray

And your voice is singing in my heart

I have been waiting

A long time for you to take my hand

Loving and hating

A desire that I don’t understand

I can't breathe, I can't sleep

Why can't I get through to you?

I can't think, I can't speak

What am I to do?

Destiny

I’ve been looking for something to guide me

Destiny

Even though I’ve tried I can't deny you

If I let you go, I’d betray my soul

I know that this is something more

Even though nothing’s spoken for,

a way that you will feel the same ‘bout me

Destiny

(Instrumental)

Read the stars and see my scars

I feel so low when you’re away

So reach out, it’s not far

Listen to me pray

Destiny

I've been looking for something to guide me

Destiny

Even though I tried I can't deny you

If I let you go (let you go)

I betray my soul (my soul)

I know that this is something more

Even though (even though), nothing's spoken for (spoken for)

A way that you will feel the same

'bout mee.. ooohhh

If I let you go (let you go)

I betray my soul (my soul)

I know this is something more

Even though, (even though) nothing spoken for (spoken for)

I pray that you will feel the same 'bout me

Destiny

Faith is within of me

Destiny

p/s i like dis s0ng..^^

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