.Syawal.

It's Hari Raya again!^^

The failed ketupat and one of the few I managed to anyam in the lab. :D

Nothing much happened though. 

And this time, it felt like something was missing. 

Something that wasn't right. 

I really have no idea though. 

Probably it was because some people are being invisible, or at least pretending to be one. 

Or it was because not that many friends are back in kampung for they are already working on the third day of Syawal.
And probably because the world revolves around the sun, and not me. :P 

The person I owe my whole life to.

Oh well. Whatever it is, I still had a good time though. :)

Managed to meet up with several friends is good enough, considering everyone is tight on their schedule.

Everyone is now working except me and very few others, hence all the reason why I am under pressure.

For a moment, they managed to get me very doubtful on the path I have chosen. Stupid me. :(

 Nevertheless, seeing Umai, Yumna and Aza and the rest has brought back so many memories. Finally we had a chance to visit KY, but too bad she's already going back to KL. :(

Besties for life.

Oh, I've realized one thing.
People would rather stay at home, sat in front of their laptops or ipads or whatever must-have lifestyle products they have than visiting people and hanging out with friends.
It pissed me off especially when my siblings are like that as well. ==''
For God's sake, if it is not now, when are you going to spend your time with your friends?
The same thing during gatherings.
 Rather than chit chatting, people would prefer sneaking a look at their smartphones.
You finally had a chance to gather around a table, and yet you opt for your phones? Like seriously? ==''
Call me lame, old or whatever..I just don't get it. Really. Because for me, it is frightening how these lifestyle gadgets have the ability to steal people's attention and makes the reality or people they are with become less interesting.
Oh, I guess I really am old for thinking this way. *sigh*

Talking about how old I've become, there's always that one topic brought up in conversations, especially among friends.
Most people are having a difficult time seeing from my point of view, hence prompted me to make up some lame excuses. Haha.
For those who really understand, I would like to thank you.
For your understanding, for being supportive, for being there all this while, in the midst of confusion.


This Syawal was probably the weirdest so far.
Some unexpected things had happened by which for once, I don't even know how to respond to.

For a Hari Raya with nothing much happening, this is quite a lengthy post. HAHA.


You said I am missing someone. But I think it is more like a habit. 
We will feel that something is missing once it is gone. 
Sometimes, it is not even that empty feelings.
 Sometimes it is just an excuse when we can't seem to stop the habit once it gets into our routine. 

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The breakups.

Before you get married - before you settle down and commit yourself to one person for the rest of your life - you should have at least 3 relationships. And you should break up from these 3 relationships in 3 different ways. These experiences will teach you valuable lessons that you need to learn before you can truly find happiness. Think of it as your Foundation, Intermediate and Advanced-level courses.

1. The breakup in which your heart gets broken. 

Most people will experience this. This is the breakup that hurts really, really bad. Maybe you were cheated on. Maybe you were just cruelly and coldly dumped. Or maybe (and I know people who've experienced this before) your partner just up and disappeared and never even bothered to let you know it's over. In any case, it's the kind of breakup where you feel like your world has just ended.

The lesson: You can survive. Your world has not ended. Your life goes on. And eventually, you will learn to open up again and love another person. The first time hurts the worst; if it happens again, just tell yourself "been there, done that." Having your heart broken doesn't kill you. It only makes your heart stronger.

2. The breakup in which you break someone else's heart. 

Most people may not even be aware that they experienced this. This is where you dump someone. It might be for any number of reasons. You found someone better. You got tired of the relationship. You never really loved that person, it was only lust or pity or puppy love. But that person whom you dumped will suffer the deepest of pain, and it is because of you.

The lesson: You realize the power you have over the people close to you. You realize how badly you can hurt someone, especially those who love you. You realize your responsibility to be kind, sensitive and respectful - to not be the kind of people who hurt you.

3. The breakup that is perfectly amicable and has no hard feelings whatsoever. 

Most people may never experience this, but it is important. Maybe the relationship was troubled and stormy - but the both of you can agree that breaking up is for the best. Or maybe the relationship was perfectly pleasant, but it has to end for whatever reason, and both of you can accept that. Maybe you can both remain friends - and only friends.

The lesson: That love and romance doesn't have to be painful. You don't have to have drama in your life. Your relationship can be steady and peaceful without being boring; it can be wild and passionate without being heart-breaking. If you're smart, if you're mature, if you know how to choose people who are equally smart and mature, you can be happy. Even through breakups.

Taken from a forum I frequent. And this is just a note for myself.

I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason. And I believe that there's no turning back once something had happened. Still, this does not mean I am encouraging relationships or being a couple, before getting married. I know that's what most people do, and I used to be one from the likes but as the time goes by, I no longer favor such thing. 

Lame, but...yeah.

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たすけて！

Last  night's conversation with Tara really gets me into thinking.

There are so many things I don't have an answer to.

There are so many issues I need to deal with, which I don't have to previously. 

Okay, perhaps it wasn't that I don't have to deal with it, it was rather I kept avoiding it all this while.

Now that we are I am turning 24, there are no excuses left for me.

And going back for Raya won't make things better.

Those questions. 

たすけて！><

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I wish next Thursday would come faster. 

I miss baking. I miss the food. 

I miss the people and yes, I miss home. :(

Why is it okay to tell someone that they are too skinny 

when it is not okay to tell someone that they are too fat?

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#ThankYouLeeChongWei

I hate to see this.

 

It's the same thing for football.

I really hate to see the players devastatingly got on their knees when the referee blew the final whistle.

Come to think of it, so far there's only three sports that can get me so emotionally caught up. ;_;

Anyway, last night he fought really hard, carrying the hope of 28 million people. 

Despite the defeat, he deserves all the praise. He should stop apologizing, really.

おつかれさまでした。

You may not win the gold, but you've won our hearts. 

Definitely you've owned mine as well. :)

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Can a guy and a girl be best friends?

Was stuck in the traffic when there's this question on Hitz.fm.

The answers from the two guys I am closest to: 

*runs*

Even though best friends don't always ended up together, somewhere in between, 

the relationship definitely went a little further on some occasions. 

Still, it is possible. Either one or both of them must be gay. ;)

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Someday, for somebody.

Maybe I should start posting on usual basis again. 

Otherwise I might have missed all those crappy stuff and little things that could be of significance, someday.

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